2013
04.21

Yesterday I wrote a bit about how adults constantly lie to children while at the same time telling children that lying is a bad thing.  Today I thought I should take up a few ways one can attempt to become more consistent.

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2013
04.20

There is a really worrying double standard in how many people treat children.  On one hand they tell children that lying is wrong and bad and punish children who are caught lying.  On the other they tell their children about Santa and the Easter Bunny with a straight face, and in some cases punish the children when the children figure out the truth.

I am of a very firm belief that this really has to end.

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2013
04.18

(springtime rain)

springtime rain cold as winter
spring summer rays and then rain
and then a cloudy cold
and then hesitant sun
and nothing stays
makes a consistent weather

cold cold cold
melting ice liquid snow
cold cold cold
a long way to go
before summer

a freezing wind
over fields of mud and dirt
rotting grass
and last year’s flowers
yet more rain
before the sun
can dry and warm the earth
and let the water down
to the sleeping seeds
waiting thirsty roots

cold cold cold
melting ice liquid snow
cold cold cold
a long way to go
before summer

2013
04.18

Blog thoughts

Perhaps I should at least begin updating my blog with my daily hundred words or something, so that at least something happens here?  It wouldn’t be very difficult at all.

Last year I wrote about three entries for the entire year, which is far from as much as I should write here.  I still have the idea that everything I write on my blog should be at least five pages of a deep analysis of something super important or I’m not doing it right.

It’s something I’m trying to get over.  Still, I don’t want it to be only a diary either.  And I am afraid to be too much all over the place with my content, but if someone read this blog they probably already know me and how wildly my interests vary.

Perhaps I ought to just try to write something here every day to get into a habit of doing so again, even if it’s just pasting my daily hundred words which I’m also trying to get into the habit of again.  (I have been slightly more active on my Tumblr, on which I mostly write short things which are terribly angry, bitter or both.  I really cannot recommend reading it unless you’re a fan of bitter and angry.)

Last year was a bit of a black hole, though, because of an experiment which kind of got out of hand and then needed five or six months of recovery time.  This winter was the first time in quite a while where I could function again, somewhat, and well… you all know how well I function during winters.  (If not: not well at all.)

But now spring is here, it’s soon time for my New Year celebration, and things are generally looking as if they can be a lot better this year.  So why not try it out?  And if I write too rarely here, please poke me on Twitter (Panterdjuret), where I’m almost always around.

Good luck, to us all.

/pao – 18 apr 2013 – 14.29

2013
04.05

End of hibernation.

It seems as if spring is finally returning again.  About a month ago it made an heroic effort but winter fought back and spring was postponed for a while.  Yesterday I thought I saw something green peeking up hesitantly from the dirt in my rhubarb bucket, and when I had a closer look I saw that under the old leaves of last year there were actually new ones!

rhubarb

 

This was exactly what I needed to see after such an unusually long and difficult winter.  The nuthatches and magpies are out and about, looking for good nest sites out on the mountain, and in Paolair my plants seem to do better now when light is returning.

Some of the plants did not survive the winter, nor did my mother’s mother.  Most of the rats did not.   I still doubt the last two rats will make it until the New Year’s celebration.

Still, I am waking up.  I’m in less pain and I feel a great deal of hope and joy.  Not only because it’s spring though, but also because of my visit to NordicFuzzCon.  That deserves a whole entry for itself any day now!

(This is a blurry photo a friend of mine took of me playing with one of the fursuiters there.)

(This is a blurry photo a friend of mine took of me playing with one of the fursuiters there.  The collie is unrelated; the German shepherd is related.)

 

I got to meet old friends which I meet too rarely, and also quite a lot of new people and new friends.  I walked away with a lot more hope than I came there with, and also quite a lot of inspiration for next year.

But I just thought I should write a spring update and show that there is still life in my seemingly dead branches; that I too will flower soon again in the light of the spring sunlight.

/pao – 5 apr 2013 – 19.57